Mood :- What was i thinking, it shouldn't end that fast!!
Date :- 1st of January 2008
well folks, that's the end of 2007 and today was the first day of 2008, i think i will miss 2007. It was a really fun year even though my grades drop, but hey where's the fun if you have got no challenge left for 2008. This year i will be aiming for my grades then my C.O.C.O. I think i done enough for my society time for myself.
Well, as yesterday was thanks giving night. It got me thinking, what has God done for me this year. Then everything came to me in a flash......
Well, got to Thank God for a wonderful 2007. It was really my first time in life to experience my up and downs, everything in a year, not split up like those past years.
Well..... it starts of like this.......
During 2006, I have been praying for a certain touch by God, since i never felt it before. My aunt told me it is a wonderful feeling. Well, some told me they can sense it , some say they can feel , some even said they can smell it. I always have this curiosity of how God's presence was. Well, my waiting has finally paid off. During January to March, I got to feel God's presence everywhere. It is a feeling i never felt before. It was so warm, so comfortable...... you just don't want it to go..... and everything i do, turns out successfully, just like Midas touch, it just turn to gold .
And i was given a chance to go for my school leadership camp, it was a great honour as i represent christian fellowship to participate this camp. I really learn alot as i was given a chance to lead a team in a game though we lost but we are praised by the teachers as we cheered all the way for other teams also keep our team highly motivated. Also i was given a chance to be MC for a day. I was partnered with Andrea Chew. It was really a great honour to be able to be her partner for the night. In the end i won best male participant award and my group won best team award which included best cheer.(this camp was held during march)
But sadly, I lost that presence at the beginning of April, i don't know how i lost it but i was trying to find it back. I finally have the guts to ask my pastor about it, when he heard my story, he told me that i wasn't spending my time reading his word or spending time with HIM. Immediately i know what my pastor said was true.If you ever get to feel the presence of God Don't lose IT. If not you will turn out like me still trying to earn it back. And then everything goes wrong............
During March, I was given a chance to team up with my old classmate to produce a drama. It was like a golden chance to show them i am able to redo the miracle i have done in 2006 for my class drama. As the it was going into motion, last minute my two classmate back out.
I was in a rage. But nothing can be done. I and my other friend who have no experience team up to finish what we started. Everything when wrong during the practises. But thank God for helping me in finding two of my main characters. They are the one who really save the show ,during the rehearsal, everything when back to what i wanted. And i finally was able to relief.
When it was time for the showtime. Everything when so so so wrong. the music was out, the sub-characters forgotten their parts, and i was not able to be at the backstage. It was the most embarrassing moment in my entire 16 years. Worst they even have to give credit to the directer that was me. OMG!! thinking back, i felt really sad, after all those time and money i put in. It turns out worst then the movie S Club 7 made. Haiz.... Immediately i fell in to depression. I keep blaming myself. I even went out and brought back 6 cans of soft drinks to calm myself. (i'm only 16 , not legal to drink beer, mind you).
And then when i was on my way to the train station, My youth leader called up to ask em how was the show......... I just told her everything went wrong, way wrong. And she comforted me over the phone and during that moment, she asked whether i wanted to go to Redang Island for vacation, everything included including the plane fare.
I was overjoyed, I was hoping to be elsewhere then KL, and BOOM!! God immediately answered my prayer, HE provided me a getaway to re find my self-confidence and myself. No coincidence, just a prayer answered by God in my trouble time.
During that trip i really got over my depression thanks to my youth leader and also other churches youth leaders. I also finally was able to re trust people and i even make friends who stay at Terengganu. God not only lead me out of my depression , He even gave me friends and return back my trust in people.
And through the months goes by, i was elected as temporary treasurer for my society's "teachers' day" event. Even though i hate money, but thank God for his wisdom , i was able to pull through every obstacles in my team way. I was even able to team up with my crush, as she was my team's leader. (hehehehe) Well, through this event everyone knows me now. No longer am I in others shadow but am able to out stand everyone. I was given praised by my Seniors for a job well done, also able to save the society's performance from going down the drain just in the nick of time. I was able to finally gain my seniors attention but also for this, i gain twice as many enemies as before.
When saying back about that teacher's day event, i was given credit for saving our society's performance also able to keep the team together even my crush also started to gain notice of me, one stone kill two birds for this round.
Later during the next few months, i managed to stir my class to first place in the English singing competition with the song "I will Follow You" by Sister Act and also "Do I make you proud" by Taylor Hicks. It was not a easy job, I have to take sore throat medicine to keep my class in order.
Then the months go by, then it was the interview day for a post in my society. during my interview, i quarreled with my club president over certain issue which i felt he misunderstood. In the end , when everyone was able to guess that i be getting first assistant head media, i end up with second assistant head media. It was really an embarrassment again for me. But I got to thank God for this post when i heard an inside news from one of the voters.It turns out that there are alot of seniors who dislike me for what i'm doing , also for the talents that God gave me i was able to grab my society teacher adviser attention. They tried to pull me down to one of the low posts like first assistant head of day. which by the way is a way way low post just above second assistant head of day.
I think God had a purpose for me to join the leadership camp, from the camp i was in the same group with my media society's treasurer who was by the way a form 6, which means she is a senior the other AJK who are form 5, she told me i did great during the camp. when she saw the posts and the name list, immediately She and the second assistant head of media help me to gain a much higher post, they were actually help me get the first assistant Head of Media but due to the interview which i end up in argument. I was only able to get second assistant head of media. Also i cannot forget my teacher adviser, when they send the posts with the name to her, she rejected it because she thought that the post i was given was to low. Thank God!!
When I think all my problem are over, i pulled myself into another one. I argued with my church's P.A partner over the new intakes of P.A operator. I actually didn't object to it at first, but after what i saw and heard for the past few months, i immediately reject it. For they were ask to joined for all the wrong reasons. We even dragged in our vice boss,the worship directer(our boss of course is God lah). i lost the argument because they think that my partner is an adult and when he speaks as though every word of his are the truth. Because i started the cold war. I even let my thought tell me what to do.
"Don't go to church lah, go when you got duty only, the rest don't care about it. You do know that this is how they have been treating you, they treat you as an invisible guy, they don't respect you, when you are on duty, problem occurs, they just came in and take over, not caring whether you are there or not."
And because of this, this was the last straw, I immediately started the cold war, only when i was in duty i went the rest even my youth group i don't take a damn care about it. And when i was on duty, i no longer take my partner opinion. i treated him as an invisible guy. And this went on for four weeks. until my pastor step in.....
I still remember it, he took me to a fancy restaurant which will cost me four months of my pocket money. And we talk about it. from everything, about my school , my family, my dad, my interest, and also the cold war. He told me something about the new intake which i don't know. He was actually defending them all the way. I myself saw no longer any reasons to stop them from joking, and i forced myself to take them in. From these, i saw the fatherly figure in my pastor. He treated me like son, when i was drafting away, he pulled me back. I should really thank him for that even though i till now still don't like the new intake, but was forced to take them in anyway.
Also just recently, i ended the cold war with my partner. As it is a new year, i don't wish to take this together with me to the new year.
And these was my 2007 testimony. All of this was by the grace of God. He help me through each obstacle that was in my way. He even provided me people to help me through. I never forget the time when HE help me to get up again.
Tell you guys out there, christian or non-christian, something, God is always there waiting for you, helping you and protecting you but it is whether are you willing to let him continue to do it for you.
Actually this was to be shared with my church but lost the chance when i had it. I hope you guys don't lose it.
